This double life

I have a double life. The one where I am sane and the one where I am crazy. I can't always tell them apart. They blend and bleed into each other and I can't remember what it is like to feel completely whole and normal

The Addiction

From across time and space you awaken in me that sleeping beast. That addiction for you. The insatiable need to walk right into the fire, that tantalizing dance with temptation. It is an addiction I have for you. It is never enough and always too much. Close enough to touch you but much too close to hold you. Close enough to touch you but wanting really to hold you, really wanting to hold you at arms length. Wrap myself in your life but knowing I can not stay. I try and walk that line and pretend it won't destroy me.