Winds of change

The winds of change are blowing through my life
Hurricane velocity winds
I can barely stand
Against the onslaught of........everything

The fabric is torn, split, shredded
I want so badly to repair it
I want to sew up the holes
That I keep falling through

I wish I could turn in my cards
For a different hand
I didn't play mine well
I bet more than I had to lose
And now I am paying
For my hubris

I thought it mattered
I thought I was strong
I thought I was right
I thought it was about pride

I was wrong